Today I left Dallas, but before I left, know this - last night I failed. Before you judge, hear me out. I actually was very pleased in my failure. During the day we were finishing a meeting in Dallas with one client, and setting up the dinner location for the other. "Dinner meeting." That has spelled disaster to me for almost 20 years now. Fun, deals being cut, appetizers, meals, AND desserts!?! Are you kidding me? Truly, I will be fighting the Mike Tyson of will power. And so the location was then set - The Cheesecake Factory. (gulp!) I could've done without a temptation like THAT! And, as fate would have it, "Mike Tyson" DID show up, and I lost. A few wings to start (no problem), then an southwestern egg roll (emmmmmm, do better Troy), then the meal was ordered. Beef ribs with fries and onion strings. The decision had then been made. BREAK NIGHT! But, here's how it continued on. The beef ribs were good, but I only ate 3 of the 6 provided. I had a few of the onion strings, and maybe 7 or 8 fries, and then....ummmm....I was FULL!!! What is going on here!?! After nice glass of (unsweet) tea, I caved again. "Yes, I WILL have the apple crumb cobbler with ice cream please." Ever been to The Cheesecake Factory? They bring it out in a wagon, there's so much. But again...this "full" thing. I bet I had 8 bites - TOPS! Can't be more than that. In the end, when I took inventory, of course it was my worst day so far, but I didn't have my heaven on earth dining experience I expected, I get full way too easy, and I wasn't even happy at all anyway. So, maybe I really have made good change after all. Today has been back to the routine. I think I understand now who I am in this whole process. Magnificent, right?
Okay, I need to address the elephant in the room.... you've been blogging for two months and JUST NOW told me? I don't know how I can recover from this, Troy.
ReplyDeleteOkay, I'm calmed down.
I appreciate your honesty so much Troy! It truly is a battle, like you said, no different than porn or drugs or smoking. It's easy for people to say "just stop eating stupid!" when they have no idea what a hold it has, emotionally, mentally, physically. I'll be praying for you and rooting for you!
Just don't eff this up, okay?
Thanks Kris. I'll do my best.
ReplyDeleteNOTE: in the future, don't use the example of "the elephant in the room" when talking to a guy on a diet, ok? We take stuff like that to heart! :)