This week started out in the ditch. You see, here's the thing, I've been sharing a burden with my brother about his job. That's been an emotional push this whole week and there have been ups and downs. In fact the job was supposed to have been filled (one way or the other) on Monday. Long story, but that's STILL yet to be determined, but I'm likening this process to a marathon race. At first you're up to the challenge, then after a while you get very weary of it, and then finally (I'm here at this step), you just keep going forward and are completely numb. Is it wrong to care so much about something you have no control over? Is it wrong to care so much for someone that you love and only want to see catch just ONE break this decade? I can pontificate all day about rights, fairness, and justice, but above all else, there is that underlying quiet element that trumps 'em all - God's sovereignty. God has a plan for my brother to succeed, prosper, and be at peace. All of this pinned up anxiety and stress means something, but WHAT!?! We'll know when we're supposed to, so until then, I pray. I've done better this week in letting it go fully. Monday and Tuesday were a wreck. Wednesday was better and family and their love played a HUGE part in that.
Oh yeah, I've been dieting. That has gone extremely well. I did have chips and salsa last night for dinner - as if that's ok, but I had nothing else and I've been great all day today. Truth is, when I eat like I'm supposed to, I really feel great all the time and I'm not tired when I wake up. Who knew that when you treat the body the way the manuel tells you to that it will actually work. Maybe Kris knew, but she doesn't tell. She's cocky (inside joke).
Casablanca. :)
To you who deleted a comment on my blog....
ReplyDeleteIt seems like every blog I read is echoing your sentiments. I think everything just seems so tough right now for so many people and for the people who aren't struggling, like seems sort of blah... why are we here? What's the greater purpose? I'm not having a hard time getting up and going, but I'm having a really hard time finding joy when I do. I hate being cold. I wish I lived closer to family. I would love to see my brother Ryan accept Christ before he leaves for bootcamp. Just so many things.
Anyway Tito, at least your diet is something that is NOT wearing you down. That's a very, very good thing.
P.S. Don't talk black.